Don’t worry! I am not going to stop blogging like “The Homeless Guy” to hide on FaceBook. I am averaging around 500 to 600 readers a day these days on the blog. It is good to know people are reading, if not commenting. It encourages you to write knowing you have an audience to write for. About blog comments -- Blogger’s comment system being entirely too tiresome and tedious to use and not amenable to getting more comments. I could open up anonymous comments, but we all know what happens when I do that. It gets entirely too “interesting” for my tastes. It tends to aggravate and upset my more supportive readers than it does me and I will keep them off for the time being. It is easy to see the cowardice of a negative anonymous comment as anyone can sign up for a Google account and comment on my blog. I could also easily ban them with Blogger’s new commenting tools as well marking them as spam.
I am slowly shifting to FaceBook after all my misgivings about the social media, though. For my iPad, it is entirely easier to update FaceBook at work – little blurbs about how my day is going during brief breaks from helping customers. Blogging is just not conducive with the onscreen keyboard on the iPad. Comments often come easier, often and more freely on FaceBook with it being entirely easier to do so. It is nice to get little notes of encouragement as I go about my day – especially today with it having been my first full day of training in my new position in electronics.
Unfortunately and much to my chagrin, most, if not all, of my former blogging friends have migrated to FaceBook – Google Reader being devoid of new blog posts as I check in several times per day. I literally removed over 50 blogs today from Google Reader that haven’t updated in over a month. Is blogging growing passé? I fear in our attention deficit society that reading a longer more fleshed out blog post is just not as appealing as short, little easily read blurbs on FaceBook. I hope my fears are unfounded. One former blogging friend told me that FaceBook was just “easier”.
I also purged my FaceBook account of most of my “friends” that were family. That gave me more impetus to write with the medium. I just don’t want my sister going back to dad about what I am doing these days – choosing to stay private as far as my family goes. Seeing as how I have little inhibition in what I will write, it was an easy step to take.
First Day of Training…
I worked from 7am to 3pm today on my first day of training. Derrick and my new supervisor let me loose towards the the end of my shift to handle sales and the cash register. I was very nervous all day, but managed to keep any anxiety attacks at bay. I kept thinking of what my Therapist told me on Wednesday – that it is perfectly normal to feel anxiety about work and for it to not be mental illness related. I took much solace in that thought. I did have four Klonopin in my pocket at the ready, but only needed to take one around lunch on my break when I began to feel my heart racing. Within thirty minutes of chewing the pill, I felt fine again.
Next on the agenda will be adjusting to working nights for a change. I slept my normal 7:30pm to 3:30am sleeping schedule last night, but must go to bed earlier today to prepare for Sunday night – my first night of being thrown to the lions so to speak. I will be the sole person working electronics at night with no supervisor to lean on, or Derrick for that matter. I hope they will continue to train me well tomorrow. I plan on soon taking my Ambien and my other two allotted Klonopin for the day and heading to bed with the pups around 4:00pm to 4:30pm. I am just exhausted after my first day.
Stacey is Not Entirely Happy With My New Position…
“I am never going to see you now!” she said exasperated last night on the phone. “I know you and you will want to sleep in the late afternoons before work!”
“Well, I don’t want to be sleepy on the job,” I replied in my defense. “I just don’t want to be miserable.”
Stacey has worked for Wal-Mart for many years and maybe has some sway with her supervisor. I suggested she ask to take on the afternoon shift for a change. Then we would have morning’s together. We will also have the weekends together for a change with me working from Sunday night to Thursday night on a regular basis. I hope that will assuage the situation some.