I didn’t realize how many people were reading the blog and not commenting until I checked my email when I got from work this morning. My Google stats said 628 people read yesterday but many of those were return visits to check the comments. I had over 200 emails this morning for requests for a password to the blog. Blogger only allows 100 at a time to read when your blog is password protected so it was very hard to pick and choose which people to add. If you received an invite and you are not a regular commenter then thank you for the wonderful, inspiring emails. You swayed my decision to add you. You made me want to just write my little heart out!!!
I think this if for the best, though. I was getting some very scary people following my every move. Whole blogs were centering around my life and writings. I was growing so paranoid that I thought people would show up at work and accost Stacey (Kim) or me for that matter. There is only one Walmart in town and it would be easy to find. If they would call dad at his business about my own private affairs, then they would do anything in my opinion.
I had a very rough day yesterday feeling utterly exhausted and anxiety filled. It was the first time in over six years I haven’t received my injection of crazy meds in the ass. I had some severe withdrawal as my medication levels dropped precipitously during the course of the night and day. I had been warned by my psychiatrist that I would feel this way. I feel much, much better today – able to work this morning fine. Things are back to normal.
I have so much I want to tell you all, but I’ve got to go to my P-Doc appointment now and will write when I get home this afternoon about that and things in general. I just wanted to write a quick note for those of you checking in to see if your login is working.