Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Overwhelming Outpouring of Support…

I didn’t realize how many people were reading the blog and not commenting until I checked my email when I got from work this morning.  My Google stats said 628 people read yesterday but many of those were return visits to check the comments.  I had over 200 emails this morning for requests for a password to the blog.  Blogger only allows 100 at a time to read when your blog is password protected so it was very hard to pick and choose which people to add.  If you received an invite and you are not a regular commenter then thank you for the wonderful, inspiring emails.  You swayed my decision to add you.  You made me want to just write my little heart out!!!

I think this if for the best, though.  I was getting some very scary people following my every move.  Whole blogs were centering around my life and writings. I was growing so paranoid that I thought people would show up at work and accost Stacey (Kim) or me for that matter.  There is only one Walmart in town and it would be easy to find.  If they would call dad at his business about my own private affairs, then they would do anything in my opinion.

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I had a very rough day yesterday feeling utterly exhausted and anxiety filled.  It was the first time in over six years I haven’t received my injection of crazy meds in the ass. I had some severe withdrawal as my medication levels dropped precipitously during the course of the night and day.  I had been warned by my psychiatrist that I would feel this way.   I feel much, much better today – able to work this morning fine.  Things are back to normal.

I have so much I want to tell you all, but I’ve got to go to my P-Doc appointment now and will write when I get home this afternoon about that and things in general.  I just wanted to write a quick note for those of you checking in to see if your login is working.    

28 comments:

Sharon said...

Thanks for adding me. Hope you feel better!

Gulf Coast said...

You are awesome....thanks

you made my day.

PipeTobacco said...

Sir:

Thank you for adding me.

As you said, even though you may feel some rough moments as you alter your medication dose... keep in mind those words of your doctor... that the feelings you will have are normal and to be expected during the withdrawal period. Keeping that idea in mind may help you keep a good outlook even if there are a few challenges for a spell.

One final thing... I do not know if you want to do this or not, but you mention some person writing a blog about you. Would you care to name the blog? It would be interesting to know what he/she is writing. If you would rather not publicize, no problem.

I hope that you have a very nice day and your doctor appointment goes well!

PipeTobacco
http://frumpyprofessor.blogspot.com

LM said...

Andrew,
Thank you for adding me.

Hope the appointment with your doctor goes well today.

glittermom said...

I'm glad we can still be blog friends....take care....

Justfly said...

Thank you Andrew for allowing me to read your blog.
I am glad you are feeling much better today.
Wishing you a great day.

themuttonfish said...

Andrew,

I'm happy to be among those selected; I know I don't comment often, but I read every single day and send you lots of good vibes.

Melanie

skinny minny said...

I am honored to be one of the ones choosen. Ride the tide of the medicines getting to where they should be ( out of you for most of them). Have a great day.

cyottee said...

Thank you Andrew I feel like I won the lottery!

Amy said...

Thank you for adding me. Your blog is an important part of my day!

geelizzie said...

So glad I got my invite this morning! Whether or not I comment I do read each day, sometimes twice a day, and I'm so happy that you are going to continue writing.

LDAlvarez said...

Thank you Andrew. I was over the moon when you replied to my email.

I can relate to the privacy issues and have had similar problems in the past, never knowing who to trust can cause anxiety. Sad that a few 'nutjobs" spoil it for everyone else.

Take good care of you and Maggie.
Looking forward to reading your posts.

Diana

pattycakes said...

hi andrew thanks for adding me !!, you made my day a happier one :)
continued sucess on you withdrawel , you are doing so good it must make u feel so happy have a good day . look forward to reading more of your life :)

Stephanie Levin said...

Thank you for adding me! It was a nice surprise to see an invite in my email box this afternoon when I was checking it. I find what you write about fascinating. I'm always that person who can sit in a room and observe people - I actually prefer to do that than to interact. I'll try to be better at commenting on your blog so you know I'm still here and reading it.

Steph

This IS The Fun Part! said...

Delighted to hear that you made it through "no shot Tuesday" without too much trouble! If that's the worst so far, you're only doing a fabulous job, my dear!

Love ya,
Grannie

- PT said...

Andrew

Thanks for the invite! I really appreciate it!

Write on!

James said...

My first comment: Keep on!!! I will continue reading each day.

Jen said...

thank you for adding me..it means a lot :)

Sharyna said...

Thank you for the invite! I think that the people calling your dad need to get their own lives! I can see going to a restaurant that you recommend but stalking you is bad! There's a lot of crazies out there and I can understand your desire to keep Stacey safe. I am glad you made it thru the day without the shot. It will get better on that front. I am soooo glad your life has turned around so!

Sharyna said...

Thank you for the invite! I think that the people calling your dad need to get their own lives! I can see going to a restaurant that you recommend but stalking you is bad! There's a lot of crazies out there and I can understand your desire to keep Stacey safe. I am glad you made it thru the day without the shot. It will get better on that front. I am soooo glad your life has turned around so!

C.A. said...

Thanks for "keeping me in the blog loop", friend. I would be quite sad not to know you were doing well!

The withdrawal symptoms are simply HELL. I took Xanax for some period and the Benzo withdrawal itself made me very very ill. I don't ever want to go through that again.

Hoping to get lots of positive blog post readings in the future!

Hugs...

C.A.

justLacey said...

I am here too. Glad to hear you are feeling better today. Your withdrawal has been pretty mild so I am glad your bad feelings from yesterday were gone today. Maybe the blog weirdos had you feeling weird. It would me. You sure did have a lot of good comments yesterday. I never knew there were so many readers that didn't comment.

glittergirl said...

:)

mngirl said...

Thank you! This was very effective at getting your readers to come out of the shadows, I must say!
I will try to comment more so that you can know that your invite was not a waste.
I'm rooting for you!

Lena said...

thank you for adding me to the list! I am so happy to be able to keep up with you Jonathan Andrew!

You are an inspiring man!

Tee said...

MY SIGN IN WORKED! Thank you for adding me to you blog family.

So glad your withdrawals have gotten better. Does the Dr. think they will get even better as time goes on?

Syd said...

That is scary stuff about a bunch of stalkers on line. I think that it would be good to be as vague about details as possible just to protect yourself. I am not paranoid but realistic. Take care and glad to be included in your inspiring blog.

Debbie said...

thanks for letting me keep reading. After a hard day at work it relaxes me to read your entries. I am glad you made it through the anxiety of medication withdrawl.