I spoke briefly to my doctor on the phone this afternoon telling the receptionist it was a family emergency. I had to stay on hold for about 15 minutes before she finally picked up the phone. I’ve slept for most of the day, but got up to garner the courage to groggily make that call due to all your advice. Thank you! I am to refuse the medications my father is coming over here tonight to give me. He was going to give me a double dose today saying it wouldn’t hurt me. “Your just going to love getting six Klonopin in a day,” my father said happily on the drive back to pick up my car at work. My doctor said to call the police if I need to and get them involved. We may need to get a restraining order for awhile until things calm down she also advised me. She agrees with me that I have been extremely overmedicated for years and years. I am so sleepy I can barely stay awake today.
“Wait till tomorrow night and don’t take your 3mg of Risperdal and just take your Paxil,” she told me before hanging up. “Your 50mg injection equals to 3mg of Risperdal per day for the next two weeks. I will see you next Wednesday to see how you are doing.”
I told her honestly about going off the Risperdal abruptly before she got off the phone.
“You can’t do that,” she replied sternly. “You took extremely high dosages for eight years and no wonder you started to have problems again. You were suffering from withdrawal and the trauma your father caused last night causing your psychosis this morning.”
I feel better with some “professional” help and advice. It has given me the strength to carry on with my current course. I have felt like crap today – feeling buzzy and extremely sleepy. I feel like I’ve been run over by a Mack truck with all those medications coursing through my veins – extremely fatigued. It will take about 24 hours for them to get back out of my system my doctor told me.
Sharyna was right in the comments about my brother. He doesn’t know what is going on. Dad told him I was off my rocker – acting crazy and refusing my medications. He was only trying to help me. My brother asked me many questions about today’s symptoms on the ride to Dr. Kamath’s office this morning. Many medical terms were blurt out by him as he listened and I talked. I think he is gaining a better understanding of what is going on. He is probably one of the most conscientious doctors you would ever meet and would never prescribe me medications frivolously.