Well, I got a call this afternoon from the manager of our local Kroger grocery store. He wants me to come in tomorrow afternoon for a job interview. The big pro about this job is that it’s less money which may sound odd to you, but it is pro as far as my disability is concerned. Another big pro about the job is that Kroger is within easy walking distance from my house. I like that very much – being able just to walk to work and save that wear and tear on my car. I will be bagging groceries and handling the carts as I do at Wal-Mart. It will also be a much busier job keeping me busy throughout the mornings I will be working. If the interview goes well, then I will take the job. It will also be a job with opportunities for advancement that I just didn’t have at Wal-Mart. This was also the job I originally wanted when I started applying for jobs several weeks ago.
I am going to be a nervous wreck, though. I haven’t been on a job interview in 12 years since I worked for the University. I am going to have to convince dad into letting me hold off on taking my two morning Klonopin till later in the day. He is just going to have to trust me. I need all the helpful medications I can get for this.
Tomorrow afternoon is also my injection of Risperdal just before my interview. It is going to be a busy day. Kim asked me tonight if something was wrong as I was driving her home from Mrs. Florene’s house. She said I seemed so distracted and aloof. I bluntly told her it was time for my medication for my disability. I felt really out of sorts this afternoon. I have taken that medication for so many years at such high dosages my body has become acclimated to it and I can really tell when it runs out. My heart will beat furiously in my chest. I just hope my medications have time to take effect before my job interview tomorrow afternoon. It will be another four Klonopin day for sure. I will be taking them all close together as well. I hope it doesn’t make me too groggy.
Well, what do you think? Am I a fool for taking this new job? Or should I just be content with the status quo? I am into taking risks these days and the worst thing that can happen is that I will just have to quit if it proves too much. I am in the enviable position of already having two other incomes with my disability and my yard care business. I hope I won’t get too much negative feedback about this, but I am interested in what you have to say. I’ve got some really astute people reading the blog that don’t usually steer me wrong.