That same black girl from the other night that accosted me for a cigarette was sitting outside on the retaining wall swinging her legs like a child by the convenience store. She must live in the neighborhood right behind the store. When I was teenager, I could’ve thought of a hundred better things to do with my time than this I thought.
“You gonna give me a cigarette today?” she asked smiling when she saw me as if nothing ever happened the other night. I guess she had forgotten she had told me to, “fuck off!”
“Smoke thou shalt not! Cancer it doth cause!” I replied laughingly mocking her. She was so rude to me the other night that I decided to have a little fun with her.
“Just one cigarette!” she pleaded.
“Why don’t just give a crackhead ten bucks and they will buy you a pack,” I told her. “Crackheads are everywhere around here! Look! There goes one right now!”
The woman I pointed at looked like your stereotypical crackwhore. She had the bulbous Adam's apple and bobbing chickenhead so characteristic of them. The dark circles under her eyes and pallid skin gave away her drug habit.
The girl said a few more obscenities to me as I walked off ignoring her pleading with my beer now in my backpack. I turned, lit up of a cigarette, and smiled devilishly mocking her. I was being so bad tonight and felt so cheeky. Payback is hell as they say.
I think the park was glad to see me when I arrived after a short walk up the street. The mockingbirds were singing joyously. That long crescendo of a cicada’s shrill call rang out. My usual cadre of black boys were playing basketball in the court. I sat down on my bench and began my first beer – my sunset brews. I donned my headphones and began to listen to my radio. This is quickly growing to be one of my favorite nightly rituals. I only bought two beers tonight feeling adventurous. I really don’t have an excuse to drink anymore other than I like the pleasant soft buzz it imparts – this peaceful, numb feeling. My anxiety has decided to leave me for the time being. It has been two days without anxiety and that is just amazing!