That edginess is starting again – the stir craziness. I can feel it in the pit of my stomach. It always happens around lunch when my medication levels fall. I’ve been trying to stay away from my diet Cokes, but broke down and drank them this morning when a headache hit. The headache instantly went away after two colas. I am so addicted. I feel the caffeine compounds my anxiety, but like an addict, I continue to imbibe.
Dad is feeling really ill. “I can’t come this morning,” he told me. “I am staying in the bed today. Wash your hair and put on that skin lotion.” I wished him the best. He often gets ill from all the many sick people coming in the pharmacy. You would think he would have an immune system of steel after working in a drugstore all these years.
Working on whittling down my Twitter follows again today. I followed 500 people and realized I didn’t care what the majority had to say. It is hard finding people you jibe with. I am mainly interested in mental illness and supportive chat. I have found some really cool people lately and it is refreshing. I am beginning a report with a few folks and we chat and support each other throughout the day.
Added a Facebook badge to the blog. We will see how that goes. I am active on there again despite my misgivings about the medium. Just click to join me on Facebook. I am starting to open up about my illness and addictions and some people think it is great (got some great and supportive emails) and some people find it alarming. Dad told me this morning that my sister told him that I went “live” on Facebook. She removed me as a friend I see this afternoon. I guess I embarrassed her.
I am keenly interested in the prospects of an AA meeting in Lafayette, Alabama this afternoon. That is much closer than LaGrange. I would hate to drive all that way and there not be a meeting, though. The websites showing AA meetings and times are notoriously inaccurate I have found. We haven’t had daily meetings in a year here and it still shows them on AA’s website.
The storms are starting to fire around my county. This gets me sooooo excited! We could use a shower and the thunder would also be nice. I guess I am just an old weather romantic – enjoying the drama of a storm.