My sister follows me on Facebook and so does my sister-in-law. It has scared the shit out of me that they are going to tell my father that I am writing about my mental illness and addictions openly there now. I am certainly throwing caution to the wind. I often wonder if I should just put my real name on this blog and where I live. Does it really matter that people can find me? Do I have the courage to be me despite what others think?
My sister sent me a private message last night after I had wrote I get a lot of readers on my blog. She wanted the address and wanted to know about building up a readership. I didn’t send her an address. I don’t want my family reading my blog it seems. I did tell her that blogging is like anything else in life as she should know being a very successful oncologist. You get out of it about what you put into it. if you write a lot and try to be interesting then people will stop by I think. Most people start a blog and give up after a few weeks when no one visits. When i started this iteration of my blog, I only had two people reading: Pipe Tobacco and Jennifer.
I am seriously considering putting my real name up today and where i live. I would love your thoughts on the matter before I do this. I always admired Kevin “The Homeless Guy” Barbieux for always using his real name on his blog despite the incredibly controversial topics he wrote about. Let me know what you think and if I am being stupid or not.
(I am also feeling especially gregarious right now. That may change in a week or two when the paranoia of my schizophrenia rears it’s ugly head. I will go back to being quiet and withdrawn – a social pariah.)