When I first quit drinking, Alcoholics Anonymous was an immense help. It was a safe place I could go every night to commune with people like me and to talk about my cravings and problems thus disarming them to some extent. Well, last night I went to a meeting. Many of the old familiar faces were still there which was comforting. One old timer even came up to me to shake my hand and remembered my name.
It was a twelve and twelve study where we read and discuss the twelve steps and twelve traditions. The more I go to AA, the more I realize it is less about drinking and more about a complete reprogramming of your personality, mind, body, and spirit. As you change spiritually, the urge to drink lessens. Thankfully, I am long past those horrible cravings that hit you in the early days of sobriety – that empty hole in the pit of your stomach that needs to be filled with drink.
I enjoyed last night despite my social anxieties acting up to some extent. The hour flew by and before you knew it, I was walking home – a feeling of peace surrounding me.
The Reading List…
I am well into book four of the Twilight Saga now. I am finding the last book much more quickly paced and enjoyable. It was sort of incredulous though when Bella, a human, got pregnant by Edward, a vampire. I thought the book was going to take a turn for the worse, but Stephanie Meyers surprised me. It has been a page turner and the prose has improved.
I’ve also started reading Interview with the Vampire which I picked up at the library. What a depressing and morbid book! My friend Karen said Louis was “angsty” and she was right! Another disturbing point about the book are the strong undercurrents of homo-erotica and pedophilia. It can be unnerving to say the least.