Maggie is all out of sorts. We've missed our walk for two days in a row. Yesterday, we had torrential rains all day. Today, I just didn't feel like walking two miles and it was so dreary and cold outside. Maggie's been sitting by the piano and wagging her tail wildly when I walk by. I keep her leash and harness on top of it. You should see me try and put it on. She wiggles so excitedly that it can be an ordeal. I get to laughing every time. "Hold still stinker!" I will say.
It is hard to eat healthy and the food not be bland. Tonight, I cooked salmon steaks and stir fried pole beans in vegetable oil. I kept thinking something was missing. BREAD! I was tempted to make some cornbread or biscuits, but didn't. My supper wasn't stellar, but I got full. My psychiatrist said the oils in fish are extremely beneficial for people with schizophrenia.
Poppa was really late with my medications tonight. I was getting kind of out done with him. The later it gets without my meds, the more downhill I go. I have to be subservient though and can't say anything. I wanted to holler at him and say, "Goddammit, you can't do me like this!" That thought played over and over in my head making me feel vindicated.