Yesterday, I was desperate for a cigarette. I was having a hard day with my mental illness and knew the smoking would calm it. In a moment of rashness, I started back smoking. I haven't felt so embarrassed in years. I had been doing so well.
Also, the post about mom messing in her pants deeply and profoundly embarrassed me as well. I was completely taken by surprise about how that was taken. Even mom was laughing about it yesterday. If there was anyway possible to take that post back then I would. I apologize.