Monday, June 9, 2008

House Call

Well, I called the paramedics and went to the hospital. I had one of my worst attacks yet and was so scared.  It got worse at the hospital with all the noise and talking.  Going was a bad mistake.  Mom arrived by my side and stayed with me.  They didn't run any tests and just prescribed me Klonopin for the anxiety.  I feel a lot better now.  I am too tired to write much though.  When I get like I do in my attacks it is akin to being drunk or intoxicated.  I can't speak or interact much and I just know everyone at the emergency room thought I was on drugs.  That is my biggest worry now.  And it would have to be a nurse I went to high school with.  Sigh!

16 comments:

Tee said...

I'm so sorry you had such a bad attack. Don't worry about the nurse! Your Mom was really sweet to come and stay with you while you were there.

As for Maggie's food. It could be the hot weather, or maybe all the people food you feed her she doesn't want the dog food. LOL!

amy said...

I'm so sorry! I really hope you get to feeling better soon.

jane said...

you are not crazy. you're having a rough patch and you're dealing with it.

i'm thinking of you.

jane

justLacey said...

Wow, not such a good day today, tomorrow is bound to be better. Dr. on Wednesday or Thursday and don't be afraid to speak up about what has been going on.

Cin said...

Andrew, Thanks for commenting. For some odd reason I had lost the link to your blog! I have you on my bloglines again.

I sure hope you start feeling better soon! I can identify with you on the anxiety attacks. When I had a really severe one last year they asked me if I was on dope too! I know they have to ask, but geez! Don't worry too much about the nurse though. Just take care of yourself. Lotsa hugs and I will be back reading regularly again. :)

Mary Christine said...

Just take care of yourself. I am sure the nurse you went to HS with has seen much worse.

Thanks for visiting my blog.

Cheryl said...

I'm really anxious for Wednesday to get here so you can see the doctor. I hope you get the opportunity to see him/her alone and get a complete physical. It's time for a 'real' doctor to treat you.

Today must have been bad. I'm so sorry.

CJM-R said...

Sorry to hear that you had to call 911 because the attack was so bad.

You did what you needed and that was taking care of yourself. It is OK. Glad you are back home.

enjoy the evening if you can.

Sharyna said...

I have gone to the hospital a couple of times it was sooooo bad. I hope you'll be ok. I know you will be. Be strong, my friend.

sharyna

Leann said...

It's o.k. Andrew. That's what they are there for. Please don't feel badly.

Manifesting Mini Me (MMM) said...

Andrew you are well loved and appreciated. Take care!

mommycupcake said...

Hi Andrew, I draw strength and knowledge from your blog and your journey. I'm an alcoholic with depression, have been on Zoloft for about a year.

I'm new to AA and it feels like learning a new language and culture. Some of the things you write clue me in, such as it's OK to just leave a dollar in the donation basket. I didn't know how much was appropriate.

I also enjoy your photography and your commentary on the things around you - Maggie, the people you interact with, your hometown, etc.

This is a long comment but i wanted to let you know that you have fans who are lurking and rooting for you and hope you continue to write such a heartfelt, witty blog.

Thank you.

anonymous said...

Have you been taking Benadryl again Andrew?

forsythia said...

Andrew, I hope you will stop step self-medicating with a cocktail of drugs. I hope you put your trust in a trained physician and stick with his or her regimen. Finding the right combination is a matter of trial and error. I know. Someone very close to me has, at times, decided that she knows better than her doctor. She'll double this and halve that, often with disastrous consequences. Your panic attack could have very well been the result of one of your medicines giving you an unfortunate boost. After all that, it seems trite and a little silly to say, "Have a good day," but I hope you do.

C.A. said...

Just wanted you to know, as always, I'm thinking of you and sending peaceful thoughts your way. I'm very concerned about you, Andrew, and want you to be well.

Hugs...

C.A.

It's just me... said...

*hug* I know what it's like. I know how you feel. I know it sucks.

I also know that if I'm ever in a situation where it's not ideal to run into someone from high school, they'll definitely be there. Murphy's Law or something.

Love you A, glad you're feeling better.