I am thinking of taking a break from this blog until I can get to feeling better. I don't want this to turn into some constant boring drivel about what ails me. A life changing ailment can be all consuming. And I feel terrible. I have never been so scared in my life, and I feel like I am losing my mind. I see my doctor Wednesday and hopefully he will help me. I need help badly and my father is a poor advocate for my mental health thinking these medications are the only answer. He will force more antihistamines upon me this afternoon and they will only make my heart race. Thank you all for reading and hopefully, I won't be down for long. I've worked so hard to build up a readership and a dead blog will kill it. Maybe after Wednesday I will be feeling better.