Friday, May 2, 2008

To Feel Good...

There is no better thing than to have your health!  My grandfather often said that before and after he fell ill with a brain tumor.  We all take it for granted until we get sick.  I've had a hard row to hoe these past two weeks.  Wracked with panic attacks, each day would be hell.  My attacks are extremely physical even going so far as to make me see things.   Finally, I seem to have some relief.  Two days so far without an attack.  I fear to say it though.  Fear I will jinx this fair health spell.  I worry I won't ever be able to function at full capacity again (One attack came on just by me cutting my front lawn!).

Helen is home cooking supper.  Sadly, I won't be able to eat until after 9 or so.  I did get her to cook a savory pork roast, mushy sweet potatoes, and her southern style green beans.  I especially like her slightly sweet and crunchy cornbread and so does Maggie.  It will be nice to come home to a hot meal after a hard day's work.

Well, I better get back to work. Still mounds of paperwork to sort.  This is the kind of job I could do all the time -- just sitting in my office doing clerical things.  Hope you all have a good weekend. 

Andrew out! 

12 comments:

justLacey said...

You will function again. You have had your shot and that should help. The trouble always seems to come in the week before your shot is due. Hopefully you are good to go for a while now. I'm glad you have had 2 good days. That cornbread sounds so good. That's just how I like it too.

justLacey said...

P.S. Thought of you early this AM when I was out of coffee and went to get some at Dunkin Donuts at around 6. Coast to Coast was on. I just love driving around and listening to the radio early in the morning when it's still dark and the roads a pretty bare. I always have. I am an early riser and yes this was a long P.S.

simonsays said...

Oh Andrew, I just got all caught up on reading your blog, I have been way behind. I just want you to know, (once again), how very proud you make me. I think you are doing a tremendous job of hanging in, in spite of so many issues. It's hard, to live our lives the way we know we should, so many of us fail miserably at it, and yet, you---who has several obstacles in your way---you do such a great job. Just in case you haven't understood how I feel in the million other comments I have written like this, I just want to tell you again. You are awesome, and if you were my son, I would be so proud. And I know your father is proud of you, too. You just keep on keepin' on, my good friend. I think of you often. Hugs.

:)

AlabamaGal said...

I hope you enjoy your delicious meal. It sounds perfect to me. I had chicken pot pie for supper.

My Grandma did die this morning. Her health had gone from bad to worse. She lived a good long life and got to see her children, grandchildren and great grandchildren so we have many happy memories but even so, I've been rather sad today. I was always called "Little Thelma" because I looked like her.

Thanks for your comment. It meant a lot.
-Michelle

Gusty Wind said...

Do you know how to do relaxation techniques? Progressive muscle relaxation? Once you learn to do that you can learn to control your anxiety attacks.
Charlotte

Leann said...

Amen. Hang in there Andrew.

Mo said...

A great reminder to embrace the simple, to celebrate health, and not take anything for granted.

Dinner sounds delicious. Enjoy!

CJM-R said...

Enjoy Helen's good home cooking. Sounds like you have lots of work to get to tonight!

Lena

Wanderer62 said...

Hi Andrew,

I'm sorry you've been getting hit with anxiety attacks. I was having some anxiety this winter about driving and wound up not driving much. Now that it's spring and the roads are clear I don't feel so badly anymore.

I've been studying Tibetan Buddhism via an American Buddhist nun named Pema Chodron. I'm learning to look at obstacles (anxiety, my voices, etc...) as spiritual teaching opportunities. There's a practice called lojong which includes a meditation practice called tonglen. You might consider it. Through the practice you learn to have compassion for yourself as you go through the obstacle and you learn to use that compassion as a bridge to the fact that millions of other people are feeling what you are feeling. You breath in the anxiety and you breathe out relaxation and healing, first for yourself and then for others.

Kate : )

Kelly Jene said...

Hey there... I'm glad the last couple days have been going well. Hopefully they will remain that way.

As for your comment on your side bar about the money your dad has saved for you, why not ask him? It's for you... that is what you would spend it on. Why not?

forsythia said...

Any chance of getting Helen's recipe for
"sweet and crunchy" cornbread? Sorry to say, I have lived south of the Mason-Dixon line for over 40 years and still haven't learned to make decent cornbread.

Grof said...

Look What I Found...Preview These Gorgeous Beauties ... CLICK HERE