I went to an early morning AA meeting. I really couldn't afford the gas, but went anyway. I needed hope and enlightenment. We discussed the AA promises which are to your left. The promises are read before every meeting and the power of the words always sends shivers down my spine. From the despair that can be chronic alcoholism comes hope, and that is something amazing.
My biggest hang up with AA is the religious aspects. My father is a staunch atheist and always taught us to have healthy skepticism of anything religious. I want to believe and try to grasp the concepts of higher powers and God, but usually fall short. I keep going, though, and hope some of this mysticism and religion rubs off on me. I need to believe to stay sober. Lately, I have been using the collective group of AA as my higher power, as I understand him. That can sometimes be lacking though.
I also have to be careful with religion. When I was in the throes of my schizophrenia and un-medicated, I grew very religious. Even going so far to reading the bible and believing God was sending me messages through the television and Internet. I would watch the nightly news broadcasts and scribble down messages from God that Dan Rather was imparting to me. It drove my then wife crazy. So I have to temper my zeal for things religious as my experiences while mentally ill have left a bitter taste in my mouth.