It is cloudy and overcast this morning. There is a chill in the air. I even went so far as to turn on the heat inside my home to 78. I like it warm. Much of the country has seen chilly weather this spring. Just this week it snowed in Utah. There was snow on the blossoms. We can't even get snow in the dead of winter that is February.
I've been thinking a lot about Ferret and Big S. I talked to Rosa again this morning and she told me, "That Ferret is crazy as hell." I laughed cause he is. I long to hang out with my friends, but know it is not for the best. I just can't be around all that drinking and carrying on. Still, I long to hang out down at the shopping center and to pass the time (so key!). I've spent far too much time on this computer lately. I have even thought of taking up panhandling to get up some extra money. It sucks not having money all the time. I know no other means.
"You would make a terrible panhandler," Rosa told me when I mentioned it.
"You're too nice," she said. "You would give the money back."
I broke out in laughter. She is probably right. I have always had a soft heart and hate to impose.
"You need to talk to your father and get him to stop that crazy withholding of money from you," Rosa then told me.
Oh no! Not this again, I moaned in my mind.
Rosa didn't speak of it for long and I refrained from commenting. I didn't want to get in all that this morning. Rosa forgets I voluntarily gave up the money this time. It is my own fault.