I've struggled more recently with my addictions and mental illness than I have in years. I am just going to break away from the gang. I feel they are bad influences on me. I came so close to re-pawning my camera and getting some beer this afternoon. This means no more going down to the shopping center and hanging out. I will still occasionally see some of them on my jaunts to the railyard, though.
I fear this will make my blog boring and I hate to see it die, but it is dying. We will just see how it goes. Maybe I can make the mundane interesting. I've felt so badly that my writing has suffered as well. I appreciate those of you that continue to comment and have suffered through some of my more embarrassing moments. It is for you that I write this blog. I just feel I am having to try so hard with this blogging thing, and it should come natural as it always has.