I feel so much better today. I wish I could bottle this feeling and unleash it on the days I am struggling. Yesterday was hell. I wanted to get drunk or blitzed all day. It was probably the closest I have come to drinking in all these one hundred days of sobriety. I realize it is chemical and in my brain.
Bonus Round: Two Model Railroaders were in the mail today. It was like Christmas all over again. I am fixing to curl up in my Lazy Boy with Nickelodeon on the TV and a Diet Coke in my hand and read for a few hours. I need comfort -- soothing, calming comfort. I am just so damned glad to be feeling better today!!!!!!!!!!