I still haven't heard back from vocational rehabilitation. I am thinking I may need to do a follow up call. I am still excited though. I dreamed last night that I was a working man. It was a pleasant dream of where I had gotten my first paycheck. Sadly, the paycheck all went to bills, but it still felt so good to be able to pay my way. I think that is so important for the mental health of a man to be self supporting.
Lately, I am dreaming lots as in daydreams. I dream of a newer, faster computer. Of ordering the parts and putting it together. Of picking out the processor, motherboard, and RAM. Of playing the latest games with full graphics even though I rarely play games these days. I dream of buying my own little pickup truck by the sweat of my brow. I also dream of cameras and being able to buy a digital SLR. It has been years since I've had these feelings and it feels hopeful, good, and healthy.