"What are you going to do today?" Rosa asked me as she stood at the doorway to my computer room.
"I don't know what it is, but it is going to be something positive," I replied as I typed out an email to a friend.
"I feel so good lately. I feel hope and that is something I haven't felt in years. I can actually envision my life turning around," I wrote in the email.
"You want to go to a meeting tonight?" Rosa then asked.
"We don't have a way to get there and the nearest meeting is in Lagrange," I replied. "That is a thirty minute drive away."
"Your car getting stolen stinks," Rosa said pouting.
"Rosa is worried it is the bi-polar aspect of my illness that is causing this positiveness I am experiencing," I continued to write my friend. "I see it as hope -- hope that my normally morose nature is lifting. I will take this pole of bi-polar any day if that is what it is."
"Online meeting!" I brainstormed as I stopped writing and Rosa still stood in my doorway. "You are going to get on the laptop and join in."
"I can't type," Rosa replied.
"But you can read and we are going to a meeting, hell or high water," I quipped.
Rosa smiled and walked out of the room to go pour herself a cup of coffee. I am not fond of online A.A. meetings, but they will do in a pinch. Today continues my forward progress through life with a positive outlook. Looking for answers to problems instead of always giving excuses as to why I can't do something. This new attitude is proving to be so contagious. I haven't seen Rosa this excited in months as well.