There was a homeless man at tonight's AA meeting. He was scared, had been drinking, and didn't know what to do. He used his time to speak tonight to ask for help. Several people came to his aid after the meeting. I spared him my information about Clara and the Rescue Mission. AA people do take care of their own. It made me think tonight how lucky I have it, even though I might bitch and moan about not having a job and financial independence.
- I have Maggie and Rosa and they are both healthy.
- I have my own health these past few weeks.
- I have a home.
- I have plenty of food my mother buys for me.
- I have warmth.
- I have a very reliable car that should last me for many years.
- I have plenty of furniture including a soft bed.
- I have a reliable computer and steady Internet access.
There is not much more a person could ask for is there? I should be content with what I have, but I want more for myself. Is that bad of me? I want independence from my parents and control of my finances. I want a paycheck and the pride that stems from getting one. I want to pay my own bills and know how much I spend a month. I want to have the ability to buy things when I need them, and to not have to pester my mother and father for something as simple as Diet Cokes or smokes.
Seeing that homeless man tonight trying to better himself made me feel shameful for wanting all that. My life has come full circle throughout the life of this blog. From homelessness to being homed in a house of my very own! A car! A dog! And the love of my life! I should just be glad I am not back in that tent over at God's country drinking myself silly every night with no direction what-so-ever in my life. I owe my parents a huge debt of gratitude despite all the many misgivings I have about them! I am so ahead of the game it's not funny.