Grand plans are forming within my feeble mind. Plans to walk for mental health. Went for a long walk in the rain today carrying my umbrella, and I realized how much walking means to me. I passed numerous houses where safely within were ensconced their occupants. People living other lives. Other desires. Other fears. Other wants. Other needs. It made me feel so small and inconsequential. As if my own problems didn't matter so much in the grand scheme of things.
Stopped by Rosa's house and talked for a minute. I had something on my mind that needed saying. I wanted to pour my heart out to her. It was aching.
"I love you," I told her standing at the front door as the rain dripped off the rim of my cap. "I don't want to be alone and I need you."
"I love you, too!" She replied. "Stay with me tonight."
"I will see you after I get finished with my walk and making sure Maggie has food and water."
"What brought this on?" Rosa then asked as I started to walk away. "You were so against us getting back together."
"I just love you," I replied. "I realized today after last night and this morning how much you mean to me."
And I do. I love her more than anything. She has been wanting us to get back together and the time is nigh. I will sleep well tonight in the arms of someone who loves me. Life is no fun being alone all the time.