Tuesday, November 20, 2007

The Last of the Summer Tomatoes...

I ate lunch with Joyce. We are becoming inseparable friends. She made tomato sandwiches with my favorite Blue Plate mayonnaise. She told me she loved me once again in between bites as we sat at her kitchen table. I blushed and thanked her. It is good to know you are loved.

Joyce was stable today, along with me. We were both feeling well despite all odds against us. I didn't want to leave, but had left my cigarettes at home. I told her goodbye as I stepped outside in the cool fall air.

"Will I see you tonight?" she asked.

"You can count on it," I replied.

I gave her a hug, and walked on home to a glorious greeting by Maggie. Once again, It is nice to be loved.

I realize the comment section on the last post almost got out of hand. I don't delete comments and let everyone have their say. I wish people would keep in mind that I only share what I wish to share. You are only getting part of the whole picture. If I shared everything then it certainly would be embarrassing. Things were said behind the veil of anonymity that would never be said to my face, or in person.

I've done it too. I've made comments on The Homeless Guy that would make most mortal men shudder. Karma has a way of biting you in the ass! A lot of it had to do with how jealous I was of his way of life. I thought homelessness was preferable to my own way of living. I was jealous and lashed out.

EDIT: I've taken down anonymous comments. I don't want to read that drivel and I am sure you don't either. I can't count on the palm of my hand when an anonymous comment was positive so I took them down. Such comments will certainly take the wind out of your sails to say the least.


Kelly Jene said...

I'm glad you and Joyce are growing closer. It's nice to have good friends.

Matt said...

I noticed you soberity counter reset. What happen?

justLacey said...

I'm glad you had a nice day and hopefully it will be a nice evening also. It's good to have a friend who understands what you are going through and isn't judgemental. I'm sure you know in your own mind what is right and wrong. In oyur own time you will do what is best for you. You have to admit it certainly was a busy day on your comment section!

ry said...

yikes, those comments were bad, weren't they?
i certainly don't blame you for taking down anon comments.

i hope you get your camera back. i enjoyed the pics and the videoblogs.

Portia said...

Mmm, I love tomato sandwiches with mayo, cheese, and a little garlic salt! I hope the rest of your afternoon goes well and you have a good evening knowing you have such good friends close by. (meaning of course Joyce + Maggie:)

Oh, and I don't blame you a bit. We have to deal with negativity in every other aspect of our lives, so why allow it into these interactions which can otherwise be uplifting and helpful?

Kelly Jene said...

Bravo to you for not taking any more crap from people. You don't need it!

Did you think about putting the paypal button back up?

Brown Spice said...

I agree with your decision to take down anon comments, read few of them and majority of them were pain to read. About the money issues man, i see you using Adbrite or something...try adsense, look at my blog..i only have one comment lol( and that too by you), i still have made $30. I started a test blog where i posted same blog entries and adsense earns you like 3 times more money.

And get your camera back, i was thinking of may be sending you a request about "How to click those darn good photos" and you gave away your camera :( ...love your pics and hopefully we will see some colorful pics soon. :)

Rhette said...

I hope the day brings you some relief from all that you've been going through. You have many friends here that support you, you are truly blessed!


rut said...

I have read your blog for a long time now & this is the first time I have ever posted. Regarding all the comments in the previous posts, I agree with some of what the anonymous posters had to say. It might have been harsh, but sometimes the truth hurts. I understand you have a big following with this blog, and your readers might feel overprotective of you. But I don't think it was fair to the posters that they got hammered for thier opinions. Just my thought. I too am disapointed in what you did. All I can do is shake my head.
I do hope that it all works out. Although I don't know how you will learn to get any better by having people send you money or your parents bailing you out on this one.

Rhette said...

Omg, I wonder why there is always a trash can at the bottom of my posts, maybe it's like "Don't dump on me, hahah!" Andrew, maybe you can get one too and throw all those 'anons' in the trash :-)

Hold on!

Barb said...

Consider your sails in a wind gust replacing that which you thought was lost.
Having absolutely no gain in writing in your blog, I write because you inspire me, you find the positive in others, that elude negativity, you bring a smile to my face as I pray for God's strength to surround you, and I like you! That can not be challenged because it is my thoughts, just as your words can not be challenged as they are yours.

I look forward to your sobriety counter working again!



You need a laugh, check out my video on my blog about needing assistance? This little girl is soo adorable..this will help you...LAUGHTER!! it always does.

Anonymous Boxer said...

((hugs)) to Andrew.

Leann said...

Good day Andrew,

I felt sad seeing your post about hawking the camera for the Benadryl. I so wish there were some way I could help you. I empathize so strongly with people that I find it frustrating to not be able to reach into their lives and fix the wrongs. One of the reasons I had to get out of the legal field. I did not want to turn into a cynacle person. Would rather hve my heart bleed than freeze.

Take care sweetie and know I'm thinking of you and praying for you.


Anne said...

I am so sorry about the camera, because I love your pictures as they give me a window into your world. Your photos complement your writing, so it seems imcomplete with out them. Ignore the comments from the mean people, they have not felt the pain that you experience every day... Focus on the people who love you and care for you (and Maggie too!)
Please do what you can to get your camera back, because I think taking pictures is good for you, don't you? A new meaning for the term "photo-therapy"!
Keep writing and taking pictures.

mosiacmind said...

Hi friend
i am so glad that joyce and you are hanging out more. i hope that you have a great evening.

CJM-R said...

New issue of The SUN magazine came today. It makes me think of you and how it might be an avenue for you to get published.

Have you ever heard of it?

STACY'S TRIP said...

Wow what a painful day! It will be ok! I've pawned many many many things in my life that were valuable. Some of them I've gotten back and others I wrote off. I know you'll get it back. And when you do....I wanna see another one of those walking around talking videos. I likey your accent. Thanks

C. R. Morris said...

I haven't had issues with anonymous comments yet but I wonder if you can make it to where they aren't allowed? I've dealt with them in message forums before.. bored people with nothing better to do. To delete them is in the best interest of all those consider intelligent. ;-) Tomatoes always sound so yummy...I just can't make myself like them.

Cheryl said...

HI Andrew,

I missed reading your last post, but see you had more comments than ever. I missed reading the comments you're talking about, and I'm glad. I hate what some anonymous posters have to say.

Are you feeling better? How was the rest of your day?

I'm too tired to write, or read, but I wanted to come here and see what you're up to. I'll be back tomorrow. Good night, my friend.

Iris Blue said...

You are living a homeless lifestyle in your own home.
You have criticized your Dad for medicating you and vomit them back up and then later beg him for medications when your symptoms come back. You criticized your Dad for being stingy with money, yet you pawn a very expensive camera for.....I'm guessing alcohol to 'calm yourself’. That's not being responsible with money.

You are living a homeless lifestyle in your own home. You need to keep busy. Your volunteer work stopped after 1 day. There will always be something to keep you from your stated goals.

I don't know what is in your future since you reject the very things that will make you more stable. Maybe you prefer living like this?

I feel worn out following your antics. I have followed your blog for a long time, but I think I will have to check in on you after some time has past. I can't watch you slowly self-destruct and you aren't good at following rational advice. I’ll let the others keep trying to prop you up.

Have a Peaceful Holiday.


now i feel i am an intruder really, glad to know i don't leave anonymous comments,and joyce? haven't heard of her in the past, i feel jealous for rosa, hhehehe

simonsays said...

You are such a good friend to Joyce. Now I'm hungry for a REAL tomato and it will be like ELEVEN months before they are around here again...thanks alot----want to send some my way? :)

Have a good day today. What a are you doing for the big day tomorrow?

Terri said...

Hi Andrew, boy was it tough catching up on your blog and reading all the comments from "Dry as Toast Post". I think you might remember that I've been reading you for a long time and I kind of agree with some of the anonymous posters as well as Rut (above). I'm sure you know when you post things like that (pawning the camera) that you will get both sides of the spectrum in comments. I think Jen, Mel and S were only trying to help and they were being honest. It did get a little out of hand but hey, who wouldn't be excited about 47 comments???? I know I would. But my life is just not that exciting! I hope you have a good day and please get that camera back as I love your pictures and videos!

Jeannie said...

You are so right, Andrew!!
Being loved is so nice!!! It helps us through the day, whatever our mood or circumstances... and I understand that you only give us who read your blog just part of the whole picture... I am doing the same in my blog, but not because I might consider all of it embarrassing, it's just that it is very difficult to keep everything in life up-to-date in writing.
Hope to see you around my blog when you get some time!