I so long to write with more creativity. Beautiful words. Words and phrases that leap off these blog pages and touch my readers. It is so hard writing a daily blog and to keep up the consistency. I read other blogs for inspiration and it helps. Other blogs that seem filled with beautiful prose. Blogs that make it look and read so easy.
Another sleepless night greeted me this evening. I went to bed at 7 PM and woke again at midnight. Walked down to my favorite park and noticed the falling leaves on the pavement. Beautiful leaves of fall hues lay scattered about -- the trees just giving up their summer bounty for fall. Ghost leaves in the pale light of the nearby street lamps. I normally fall melancholy this time of the year due to the time change and the change of seasons, but feel mentally well these days. The numerous anti-depressants I am on no doubt helping in this regard.
It was a much warmer night tonight relatively compared to the past few mornings. I noticed in Nashville the night before a horrendous line of thunderstorms pushed through. I wonder if we will get the same tonight. The breeze tonight foretold a cold front on the way. And the smell of rain was on the air. Warm gulf breezes were pouring in off the Gulf of Mexico headed our way adding fuel to the proverbial fire as far as storms go. I long for a stormy night curled up on the couch as the lightning strikes and the thunder rumbles. The sound of rain pounding on the roof as I sit by candlelight with everything unplugged. I would then go to bed as the thunder faded in the distance and the rain settled to a steady drone on my roof.
Sat for the longest time thinking in that park. Of life. Of love. Of friends that go blog. One cigarette after another was smoked as I mused over these things. I realized we create tangled intricacies in our lives and relationships. I've seen many people comment, come, and go over the course of this blog. I miss all that have gone and there are a few I am glad sought out greener pastures to haunt. Those are few though. I realize I don't have the time to visit everyone that comments and that worries me. I wish I had the time in the day to visit everyone and leave words of support. Nor do I have the time to reply to every comment without being trite. I must pick and choose my battles of the blog wisely.
Well, let me settle down and try to get more sleep. Maggie is in the bed curled up and snoring. I know she wonders what has happened to me these days. The slightest change in routine such as the time change can send me into schedule helter skelter.