"Do you think my mommy loves me?" she asked as she stuck her tongue out intently as she colored with a blue crayon amid the lines.
"I think you mother loves you very much," I said, sitting on the couch, watching.
"Why did she leave me?" Allyssa said as she looked up at me with those earnest eyes.My heart broke...
"Sometimes mommas and daddy's need to take a break," I said, stifling back a tear. "That is where grandmas come in. Your grandmother loves you very much as well. She's your momma now."Allyssa smiled at me and went back to coloring as she would occasionally look up to watch the TV. It was remarkable how resilient children can be. She really was a wonderful child to be around. Rosa came and picked her up in a friend's car, and I was actually sad to see her leave. I am exhausted, though. I've gotten several emails about how tired I would be when this was all over. They were right! Kids are so busy! I felt like I constantly had to watch her to make sure she didn't get into to trouble or harm herself. It was a damn lot of responsibility. This bachelor admires parents everywhere. It's a tough job, but so filled with satisfaction. To know a little life is dependant upon you, looks up to you, and needs you to survive is humbling. Maybe someday I will be a parent yet! I don't have very high hopes, though. I am getting old! I will be forty before you know it.