The ongoing strife with my father over my disability benefits never ends. It literally takes the wind out of my sails. He has tightened the noose once again saying I am spending too much. He says I must live off of $85 dollars a week using it almost like a weapon against me. I realize I must appoint a third impartial party over it. Social Security just makes it so hard to do. I am just too exhausted and tired to do anything about it anyway. Maybe I need to drive out to the mental health clinic and get the ball rolling this afternoon. All I want to do is stay in this house and smoke one cigarette after the other. Sorry for the lack of updates.