Falling in love was the last thing on my mind. Isn't life funny that way? It's scary, too. You are so afraid of getting your heart broken and I have always had terrible taste in women. I tend to have low self esteem and will date the first thing that comes along. Rachel and Carolyn are good examples. With Carolyn, I was kind of dating a mother figure. She coddled me and propped me up. I was enamored that such an older, more mature, woman would want me in her life. She grew possessive though. Intense. Once again that word scary comes up. I ran away and left like a child running away from home.
I don't know what the future holds, but it holds a certain mystique. I am excited, elated. I am also scared. I am going to take things real slow and will tell Rosa so today. Things are moving way too fast. I feel as if I am on some roller coaster that won't stop to let me off. The butterflies in my stomach are more than I can take. I have to do what makes me feel comfortable.