"I've decided I am just going to stay single for awhile," I told Rosa honestly as we were walking back from Rodger's Barbeque after eating lunch.
"Is this about A.A.?" she asked.
"Yes," I said. "They are right in that relationships can cause things to get complicated and fucked up for someone new to sobriety. I don't want to go back to drinking."
We were halfway across the Chattahoochee when I stopped on the bridge to lean upon the guard rail and look down at that swirling green and turgid river water. Rosa leaned up next to me. The traffic flew by us on the bridge pushing gusts of wind that whipped our clothes and hair into a frenzy.
"I'm always here if you change your mind," she then said. "I appreciate you being honest and forthcoming with me."
"You know what?" I said as I looked up at her. "If things were different and I wasn't some ex-drunk basket case then I would sweep you off your feet."
"Those things don't matter to me," she replied of my alcoholism and my mental illness. "I love you just the way you are. You are one of the better men that I have met in my life. But I understand why you must stay single."
"I appreciate you saying that," I said as we started back walking.
Rosa reached out to hold my hand and clasped it firmly.
"Friends forever?" she asked as we stepped off that bridge to make our way to our homes.
"Friends forever," I replied as I looked at her with a warm smile.
"Today's going to be a beautiful day. I can just feel it," Rosa said.
"It already is," I replied as we crossed the railroad tracks and disappeared into downtown.
Things of note…
- Today's actions were taken in part by the many wise and insightful comments from my blogging friends yesterday. Thank you for the comments and this post was dedicated to the women who visit my blog. It pays to be forthright and honest with a woman, doesn't it? I was extremely surprised things went so smoothly with Rosa. She took it really well. I guess she really does love me.
- I dropped my $350 dollar Canon camera the other day and ruined it. On my meager income, I will never be able to afford another until next Christmas. So thus ends pictures for quite awhile and tolls the end of my photo blog. All my funds are going into buying myself a new computer these days and I have saved up $285 dollars.
- My friend Cheryl asked me in an email about my father giving me a hard time about Rosa eating on my restaurant tab all the time. Actually, he is just glad I will go and eat. My social anxieties tend to make me shy away from busy restaurants such as Rodger's. So he is glad I have a friend to go with and am getting a "home cooked" meal everyday with vegetables.