Rosa was standing in my kitchen next to me as I made grilled cheddar cheese sandwiches this afternoon. A pot of homemade minestrone soup was bubbling on the stove.
"I got asked a question today and I didn't have an answer," Rosa says as we stand there. "And it made me think."
"What was it?" I ask, intrigued, as I flipped the grilling sandwiches so they wouldn't burn.
"Where did Cain's wife come from? Was it his sister?"
"Now that question would throw the Christians into a frenzy," I say.
"What do you think?"
"I don't know and I don't care," was my response.
"Didn't you used to be big on religion?" Rosa asks.
"Yeah," I said. "I read the Bible and I also thought Dan Rather was a prophet and was sending me scripture through the television."
"Dan Rather?!" Rosa asks as she smiles incredulously.
"Don't ask," I say. "I was crazy."
I fix Rosa and me a plate of a sandwich and a bowl of piping hot soup. We walk into my den to sit and eat as we watch The Weather Channel.
"Monday is my first mental health support group meeting I am starting," I say as I take a bite of my sandwich as the melted cheddar oozes out of the other end.
"You're really passionate about this, aren't you?" Rosa says. "It's all you have talking about for days."
"I am scared shitless as well," I reply. "I am so worried only one person is going to show up and then I will have to fill an hour with conversation. You know me and my social anxieties."
I put down my plate and walked over to my computer desk to get the flyer I made and then handed it to Rosa.
"This looks great," she says.
"I am going to drive down to Kinko's and have a bunch of copies made," I reply. "Driving George tonight is going to pay for it."
"What kind of refreshments are you going to have?"
"Soda, diet soda, pimento cheese finger sandwiches, homemade chocolate chip cookies, and coffee," I reply.
"Okay," Rosa says as she smiles. "I am coming with you Monday to support you. Just don't expect me to talk."
"It will probably be just me and you anyway," I reply.
We finish our meal and Rosa leaves to walk home after giving me a hug goodbye. I feel one hundred percent better about Monday now that Rosa is coming with me. With her help, I think I can get through this.